Freedom! (Almost)

Yeah, everyone's feeling it, the sweet taste of freedom. It's hard to believe that in just about 2 weeks, I'll never have to wear a school uniform, school shoes, encounter crappy teachers, come face to face with smelly, stinky, horrible, toilets or even so much as glance at a sejarah book anymore.

After every single paper, it feels so much lighter, like weights have been lifted off your shoulders. And it's not just me, seems every single person in the hall feels it too. Somehow, no one really seems scared or whatever, we just want it to be OVER!!

I'm sounding hysterical just about now aren't I?

I can't believe it's ending so soon, I've got to say, I'm gonna miss high school to some extent. It seems like form 5 just started...

But the inevitable happens and life goes on...sigh*

Cheers~

I'm thinking about....

Well, SPM is in ten days and here I am... For the past few days I've been thinking a lot about where my life is headed...

First of all, on Wednesday, we had to fill out this sort of student info. card concerning our ambitions. Although I'd like to clarify that the question they asked is not legitimate.

The question was what we wanna be as adults, it should have been what our ambition is, or what career path I would like to pursue.

But that's not the point, the point was that it got me thinking. As an incredibly indecisive person, I haven't even made up my mind on which field I wanna go into, let alone pinpoint a course.

And as a result, I've come to really hate these question- "what's your ambition?" Although, on that particular day we (Karina and I) had a lot of fun with that.

But still, it really got me thinking... and after a few months of deliberation and well...thinking...I haven't come even close to making a decision...

Secondly, on Thursday, I read a book, titled "13 reasons why?". This novel tells the morbid tale of Hannah Baker, who before committing suicide, taped 7 tapes regarding why she did what she did...

Each side of these tape have a story of one person who indirectly, or directly, caused her to kill herself. The book follows the 9th person on these tapes, that is Clay Jensen, the "perfect guy".

Although Clay hadn't trespassed Hannah in any way, he was on her list, because had he the will and courage, he could have reached out and saved her. But, unfortunately, he didn't, and the inevitable happened.

The book was sad, as it reminds its readers how much of an impact one simple action or one simple word could have on any other persons in our surrounding.

As I read the book, I came to think about, how my own action, my own words, no matter how inconsequential they are to me, can affect another person.

And then, on Thursday morning, when I was in school, 5B-ians were reminiscing about the times we had in our earlier years. And as the conversation shifted to me, it got me thinking again.

And then today, on the way to youth. My friend was telling me about how, in the future, I might have to lead a group on my own...

And yes, I know in the future, I'll probably have to do it, but nevertheless, I felt unready. I felt really insecure about abilities. I just started attending youth meetings last year, how am I supposed to lead a whole group?

Then he made an excellent point, - that if we were ready, what's the point? We don't have to feel ready, that all we need is willingness for God to work in us, through us.

And as I was thinking, coincidentally, our guest speaker for that day, was going to be talking about being a person of impact!

And as he was talking, I kept thinking I wanna be that person. It doesn't matter what my job is, God can still use me. It doesn't matter how short, how scarred, how ugly, how stupid, how insecure I am, bottom line is, that God can use me to do anything, as long as I'm willing.

And so as he prayed, I prayed too, wanting for God to work in me and through me.

And you know what, God is so good, He answered my prayers. After the speaker finished, and we were enjoying ourselves with chips, when suddenly this guy from their group came up to me.

Here's what he said : "Hey you know what, I don't know your name but there's something The Lord wants me to tell you. As you were worshiping and throughout the whole thing, I felt you have that hunger. That hunger for The Lord. And you know what, we've been to so many countries and met so many youth, and some of them just come in and do their thing but you, don't let that hunger fade."

I was so surprised at that, I never considered myself to be worthy of even those little words of encouragement. But The Lord is truly amazing!, and I feel so blessed!!

All Hail The Almighty God!~

Thanks guys!

Yesterday was my special day!! Yes, I'm finally 17, left behind by so many friends who had already turned 17 early in the year.

Although I didn't do much due to my having to study for the dreaded SPM but still I had loads of fun in school!! Yes!School! Although SOME of my friends weren't there (yes Audrey, I'm talking about you), but still it was lots of fun thanks to my great great classmates.

From Karina, Sook Ting, and Kin Kit- thanks guys, I named it Pupu. Why? I don't know. It just sounded appropriate.


Also from Karina, Sook Ting and Kin Kit. Although I don't really use these "eye covers(?)" but I'll always treasure it!


Pupu with the covers on. Since it's always sleeping anyway. ^^

A very sweet Paua Shell pendant from my lou gong.

Cute earrings, also from my lou gong!


A very nice kind of antique ceramic treasure box, from my lou gong again! XD

Also a very rich chocolate cake from starbucks from Rui Zhi a huge lolipop from lolipop man himself, although I tak sempat take picture of both (too tempting!) haha thanks Rui Zhi & Kok Shien!

Thanks everyone for all your warm wishes and encouragement, especially my fellow Obedians, and my angel- Agnes (luve ya).

Cheers~~!

MmmMmm...toasted marshmallow

Mummy went out today to get some groceries and didn't come back until late afternoon. I knew she was gonna cook lunch so I decided against getting something from the coffee shop, but I got so hungry I couldn't stand it.

So I decided to toast a marshmallow, with hilarious results. I turned on the stove and held the marshmallow over the fire with a chopstick and the marshmallow caught fire! Argh. Now I have a burnt marshmallow.

Actually it caught fire many times...This is what you get when you let a totally inexperienced person *try* to cook without assistance!

Despite what it looks like, it actually tastes kinda good, crispy on the outside and gooey on the inside! Yummm.

Testes cancer

While shopping in 1 Utama today, I came across this retail store that was redressing all it's mannequins and this particular one caught my attention.



If you squint, you'll see that it's actually a ball....

Here's one zoomed out, but it's clearer. I couldn't help myself but laugh...somehow the mannequin looks like it has testes cancer...How fashionable...XD

Just thought I'd share this too, found it while studying chemistry and laughed my socks off.


A beaker full of Haha's... XD ( I wonder if the authors of the book got a kick out of it and decided on that particular chemical...)


Cheers~

Hi, I'm a forgetful fish, at least I think I am...

A few weeks ago, I came across this question during physics tuition that made me laugh so I thought I might share with my dear readers.



The question was: Diagram 19 shows a 4kg fish swimming 1m/s swallows an absent minded 0.5kg fish swimming toward it at a velocity that brings both fishes to a halt immediately after lunch. What is the velocity of the smaller fish before lunch?

LOLS...the smaller fish was so absent minded that it swam right into the big fish's mouth making itself lunch?XD



Here's something I drew to go with it (inspired by Rui Zhi, cause she said the big fish's mouth was too small to fit the whole of the small fish). Which, come to think of it kinda makes sense.XP

Cheers~

Tagged?

Newbie coming through!! My first time playing this game, so be nice to me...

15 weird habits of mine:

1. When I was younger, I used to talk to my blanket and pillows. (My dad says not to worry, people who talk to themselves have money in the bank!)

2. I once staged a mock picnic with lovely blankeey and all my stuffed toys!!

3. I used to pretend I was the mother of my little stuffed toys....XD

4. I have a lot of mood swings, I can go from the highest of highs to the lowest of lows in just a matter of seconds.

5. I lock myself in my room and don't talk to anyone when I'm in a bad mood so I don't lash out at anyone.

6. I hate family functions and big parties...

7. Sometime, I wish I had an older brother, sure they're annoying, but they come in handy when you need someone to carry the heavy stuff or when a guy takes advantage of you.XD

8. Although my big sister already has that part covered. (I love my shmoops)

9. I love add maths.

10. I have a very low self esteem.

11. I love doing arts and craft, ie: making cards, earrings, anything to do with beads.

12. I hate exercise.

13. I love to eat...

14. I like to read about gory killings, forensic science and such, even though I get seriously freaked out.

and lastly,

15. I dream of owning a pie store even though I can bake scratch. ><

I shall spare others from having to do this, 'cause number sixteen is that I'm a nice person XD. Although, not knowing who to tag helps a lot too...Hardeeharhar...
Enjoy!

Finally! A post after a million years of sunshine~

After approximately three weeks from blogging, all I can say is phew!! But due to limited Internet time, this post will be as short as time will allow. It's certainly been a whirlwind of a time since I last blog, I'm bursting with news. But most exciting of all, I think everyone will agree, is the scholarship interview last Saturday.

Waking up in the morning with your stomach full of butterflies, and having your legs turn like jelly throughout the whole day isn't exactly any one's idea of fun. But I think the whole experience was very enriching, to say the least!

A few months ago, I applied for the School Achiever Scholarship Award (SASA) offered by HELP! university. Honestly, I never dreamed that I would be called in for the interview, but I was. Of course, when I received the e-mail saying that my application has progressed, I was apprehensive, and a bit reluctant. Why? Cause it would be my first ever interview!

That morning, I think was worst than PMR results day. I had to endure an hour and a half of chem tuition. Through which I never even paid the slightest attention! My mind was a million miles away. All the way to HELP! I was fiddling with my hair, my nails, anything and everything that I could fiddle with. I walked in with literally jelly legs at about 12.15. I was so worried that I'd be one of the later few to register, but it turns out I was the earliest! The hall was empty save a few students with their (kiasu?) parents!

After registering, my friends (Karina, Rui Zhi, Kai Ru, and Mei Ling) and I sat down to talk to one the ex-recipients of the scholarship. All the grey-shirted people were very nice and generous with various advice.

When the time came for the interviews, I discovered I was to be the first (among others) to be interview (OHNO!!!) But, it didn't turn out as bad as I thought it would since I like to get whatever done and over with as soon as possible. They brought us (three in a group, I was with Jason (Sultan Abdul Samad) and an Indian guy whose name I didn't quite catch), to a room.

I pushed the glass door leading to the room, only to realise I was suppose to push! (so pai seh!!!) Entering the room, I saw three people, a woman and two men, whom, despite their smiling faces, were still scary to me!

Sadly to say I don't quite remember every single question he asked me, but here are just a few questions and comments from him(the head interviewer and self confessed bad guy).

1. So, you want to be a teacher? To which I answered yes, although I'm not really sure exactly what my future profession would be. But this is one my options, so I answered yes lah!!

2. You sound very disgruntled at your teachers. (Yes I am)

3. For example? (My school condones open burning which I do not)

4. I'm asking about the teachers. (Well, the teachers in my school aren't teaching their major subjects, and that screws us up a little)

5. For example? (Well, my form 4 chem teacher never ever taught. All he did was instruct us to copy the practicals. We never opened the text books once.)

6. Hmm, you know the only way to change our education system is to become a politician. (o.O). One person is very hard to change the world...(Okay...that I know)

7. So how much do you know about HELP!? (Hmm...not much. But I know HElP's psychology department is probably one of the best)

8. What about our achievements? (Erm.....)

9. OMGAWD!! You don't know what you're getting yourself into man!! (GULP!!)

10. So how much do you know about A-levels? (Not much, only that it is tough)

11. That's not a lot...(Hmm...yes...but I'm not applying for A-levels)

12. Oh? So what are you applying for? (Erm...ADP?)

13....Oh okay...So how mush do you know about ADP? ( I know that after studying a certain amount of time here, I transfer to an American uni and finsh my course there, and get my cert from there)

14. So, you're an ICT prefect. What do you do? (mostly clean up...ect.)

15. And you were the chairperson for public speaking and debate competition? (yes)

16. So you have public speaking experience...(yeah..I guess)

17. Wow, you're an idealist. Welcome, to the real world man! (Hm....okay....*speechless*)

18. Your essay (we had to submit an essay about our aspirations) was very strong, very vicious! (Okay....way weird, is that a good thing???o.O)

After which I don't remember what happened. I just remeber walking out, sweating bullets, and taking very very very deep breathes. PHEW!!!

WOW!! After the interview, I was so high on adrenaline!! But yeah...after the high, it hit me...It wasn't so bad after all. Thinking about it, it's one way or the other, they either loved me and hated me. But I thank thank thank all the people who've supported me, namely my friends who were with me, my parents, Agnes ( i love you babe), and OBED dg for your prayers. Last but not least, to which I owe my very existance, Father God, I thank You so much for Your guidance through I could not have lived without.

Now, there's an update for my very very bored spiders, who've so kindly endowed my boring blog with their cobwebs while waiting for my update, heaven knows what I'm talking about. Due to severe lack of sleep, I've used update and spiders in the same sentence twice each. It's a crime!!

And now, dear spiders, I'm going to bed. *sigh* And shall see you all soon. xoxo

*ps. no spiders were harmed in the writing of this post but I expect several readers will faint at my childish and less than savoury answers.

Yet Another Lazy Friday

I should have spent the afternoon studying physics 'cause I have a test tonight but ended up spending like 3 hours working on my brothers stupid project! As the annual mooncake festival draws near, more and more nonsense comes up, and my brother was required to make a lantern out of recyclables. So like many many other things, I, the loving, caring, (perasan betul!!) older sister had to do it for him...

Luckily, a few days ago, there was a newspaper article on how to make your very own paper lantern!! What a coincidence, and it didn't look quite that bad either. Hence, we followed (most of) the instructions and here's how it turned out:-

The two fronts- (yes that's quill art!! love it personally, great for making cards on special occasions)


This is how it looks when it's lit

After finishing, mummy suggested that before passing it up, we should enter it in the lantern-making competition held by our Taman. What do you think? Nice enough to win something? XD

Tata~~

I Was Born On A pirate Ship!

Last Saturday I went to youth as usual, this time round, I was in charge of welcome. After racking my brain for quite some time, I decided to just go with tongue twisters. So, as always, when you need info. you google it. And I found a lot of funny ones- Here are just some of my favorites:-

How much wood would a woodchuck chuck
if a woodchuck could chuck wood?
He would chuck, he would, as much as he could,
and chuck as much wood as a woodchuck would
if a woodchuck could chuck wood.

Which witch wished which wicked wish?

Many an anemone sees an enemy anemone.

Of all the felt I ever felt,
I never felt a piece of felt
which felt as fine as that felt felt,
when first I felt that felt hat's felt.

If one doctor doctors another doctor, does the doctor
who doctors the doctor doctor the doctor the way the
doctor he is doctoring doctors? Or does he doctor
the doctor the way the doctor who doctors doctors?

Can you imagine an imaginary menagerie manager
imagining managing an imaginary menagerie?

Then suddenly I came across this one, which to me is the funniest of all-

I was born on a pirate ship

When I saw it, I was naturally puzzled, thinking how does this classify as a tongue twister?
Then right below it I saw this - hold your tongue while saying it.

LOLs. Try it. Seriously. I got the giggles trying it, and couldn't stop after that. HAHA!!

I Was Born On A Pirate Ship!